The Night Before The Last Official Day of Attending A School I Went To For 7 Years ft Results day

23:21 Wednesday 16^th August 2017

Yo so today’s the night before results day…and today I finally got my hair dyed back to normal…that was sorta sad too because had to pay £95 pounds but like I always say we all make mistakes so firmed it…oh the fuck wells, Oh wells…Then I went creams and was sleepy asf and I tried taking a nap but it just wouldn’t work so here I am 23:23 wide awakeee….

Dear God, I really do hope I get 2 A’s and a distinction in economics been wishing for such a long time coming….Like I know I procrastinated a lot but I genuinely know I worked hard…like it took a lot out of me…So here I am saying that even though I didn’t work the most efficiently/productively..it took a lot out of me and I truly hope it reflects. But I love you God. Come through….

Bruh tomorrow’s gonna be the last ever morning waking up for the school I’ve been at for 7 years and I’m just a emotionally attached person…Like I cannot explain I’m dreading it more that tomorrow will be the ultimate departure? Goodbye? Like the people and the memories…There’s been so many ups and downs, so much goodness overall and I can’t actually comprehend that this day has come and it’s tomorrow 23:27. Absolutely gutted, I’m gonna miss that place and them. So much. Bruh tonight I am in my feeeeeeelingsss

The way I’ve been telling every person to pray for me…this one boy who’s on holiday to turkey and I was like find your local turkey beach and throw a rock into the sea and make a wish looool. He was so cute about it ‘’I’m gonna go to a beach too *laughing emoji* I’ll dash one in memory of u “ haha

But now I have to go and get ready, pluck those eyebrows, do my nails lmaooo. But at least I got my shows to keep me from more nerves…bold type ayeee fosters (argh kinda too deep for rn) and erm Younger yassss

 23:32 ‘’I love you God’’

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So it's 21:51 rn and it's Thursday the 15th of October 2017

UCAS

Although I didn't get amazing grades ngl but everything genuinely worked out and I truly think God got through to me... through the many, many 23:11 11:11 or casual prayers/wishes...Like weirdly two-ish days before results day my first chosen Uni made my offer unconditional (Which means I didn't need the grades to get in). Like the entry requirements was fricking AAA but right now I'm on a gap year so yeah. Like I can't express how shocked I was on that day, I'm just so grateful for this miracle honestly...

It's going to be the final part of my education so I'm just going to do so much better, work so much harder and avoid my nonsense from the past that deterred me, honestly.

For some of you agnostics & atheists (If I said the right ones) and not really religious people you might think this is too much. But I can't express to you how much faith believing in God gives you. Like it really and truly keeps you going by having that exterior hope of above and beyond, that keeps you grounded to trust the process. Like not going to lie I'm not a traditionalist, someone who's like...you know religious that follows guidelines but I just believe in God, in a God. Like I can't explain it but all I know is it keeps me strong, away from that feeling of sinking, ygm...

-It's beautiful

I hope them the best and soooooo much more from the bottom of my heart.